Holding On

As December ends and January starts we all have excitement.  A close of one year and the start of a new one.  A fresh start, new plans and visions, new resolutions and new opportunities for a fresh start.  Unfortunately for parents who have lost a child it just represents another year longer without their child.  A year further removed from the last time they saw them alive, another day they are not here.  

This new year though can be a bit more difficult because we now enter into a new decade.  Twenty twenty (2020) represents a new chapter in this world that does not include their loved one.  

I often wonder how big Gabriella would be?  How tall would she be compared to her siblings?  How would her voice sound like or what changed interests would she have?  

This new decade brings about a new season for all of us but many families will be clinging on to the previous decade because it was during a period of time when all seemed normal.  It was and now it isn’t! 

I too will forever be stuck in the past decade, 2015, a memory of the year my baby passed away and went home to heaven.  I like many families will enter 2020 with a deep scar that will never go away and never be covered.  I wear my scar openly and never cover up my wounds.  I never want to forget and never want others to forget my sweet Gabriella.  

Be patient with us and don’t try to fix us.  We enter 2020 forcefully grieving forward.  Hug us, love us but most importantly, Remember!  Remember as we Hold on!  

Happy New Year